I can't see my desk

hi,
OMFG!! I go to burn a CD- an 80 minute one, might i add. AND IT ONLY BURNT 67 F#$&EN MINUTES OF MUSIC!! Far out, i'm cut. aaanyway.

Ugh, I'm bored again. Well not again, it's been one looong boring stretch. I'm just gonna copy Sublime and tell you all about my friends *Alphabetically*:

Alan
Well he comes and looks here so I guess he's now my friend. I don't think we're ANY MORE THEN THAT. I think PEOPLE think we are. Lol, anyway he's just a nice bloke. lol, bloke is so the wrong word. Can you get someone that's just overly nice? I'm not saying it as a bad thing, I just meant like, he just is never..mean? I'm not saying everyone is, I just mean he's always, constantly nice. That's something that I could never be. If someone's pissing me off, I think you can tell. He's nice to be around, but I can never think of what to say, lol.

Angela
I've known Angela for ages, but only recently we've actually been friend friends. I dno, she kinda just morphs into the crowd, not that that's a bad thing. Gah, I bet she'll read this hoping for something interesting, lol. Well you can thank her for this place, she introduced it to me. Well, Angela's nice and she's always got good advice, I guess. Lol, what can i say?

Georgia
Yes, Georgia. She's been my best friend since year 4. I reckon our worst year was year 6 when we were in different classes. Well she's in Ballarat at the moment so I can't talk to her. She does dancing and music and stuff. We actually don't have THAT much in common, but we get along so well. We can telepath thoughts to each other. Lol, Georgia has got to be one of the funniest people around.

Jia Wen *Jong*
Jia Wen just appeared out of nowhere in like the middle of last year. She doesn't really have much input though, but that's only coz she does that double shrug thing. But she's always reading, i don't think she really cares what happens around here. Well, good on her, I guess.

Prianka *Prinx*
Prianka is an avid fan of this place, and i applaud you for it. Haha, Prianka is so funny. And she's so smart as well. I have to disagree with everyone else though. I don't really think she's a blonde in disguise, she can just have her "blonde" moments. Lol, don't we all.

T.A.
T.A.'s been my friend for ages. She came up with the name "Kimo" in year 4. I remember that. And I've always wondered what the hell is a Kimo? Well, she's an all-rounder. She just walks up to someone and just get along with them. And she's funny too...her only problem is that she likes LOTR. cough cough, lol.

Wendy
Wendy came to our school in yr 7 but we only became friends in like the middle of yr 8, but we're good friends now. She's azn, like me...and half the world, but we have so much in common it's scary. Well, sorta.. It's weird that it feels like i've known her forever, but actually, it's only been like a year or something. She's fun to be around and she's good to fight with. The only thing is, she can be a workaholic.

Well I do have more friends, but these are the spesh ones. This took me ages to write, so you better appreciate it. And if you're not on here, soz, tell me and I'll write one for you. I'm gonna make another post, actually, Ill do that later.
Kimo

I just choked on nothing

hello hello,
well then. I feel like talking, but I don't know what about. I think I might move schools. But where can you find a good school these days, that don't cost a couple of cars..or at least one good car. But if I move, then I have to make new friend s and then all my other friend's'll be at another school, then "it'll never be the same"!! But I mean seriously, around $15 K a year is a lot of money. And personally, I think it's a waste. I mean, what would happen if i don't even do well in VCE?!! oh well.

I'm so ... i dno, i'm gonna go now. I'm sick of this place. this blank screen has been staring at me for ages. piss off blank screen. gah. anyways,
Kimo

gah

Hello,
If you've been keeping up with my posts, you'll notice i said i was gonna disappear for a while. by that i meant i'll stop coming here and msn. BUT THE TEMPTATION IS SO STRONG. Anyway, it hasn't really worked. gah. didja know i spent like 6 hours straight the other day here? yeah, well i did and then i got a huge headache. funny that. and i only got off coz my bro came home.

well i have nothing to do. well actually i do, but im not gonna do it..just yet. i don't really have anything to say either. I just came to say hi to you people. Hmm, there really isn't much to do on the internet. or else where. what can i do? i have to take my cousin out 2moz. yay yipee. *cough* i might go somewhere...somewhere? BUT WHERE? i dno. such tough questions. What do 11 year olds like? lol, dyu reckon it'll be wrong to introduce korn and slipknot to her? maybe. it might damage her. ok, i'll wait til next year. oo, christmas is coming up. and then new years. oh, george, britts, jong's bday first. yeah, then priankas afta new years. then ugh flicks. then 2 days lata will be MY BIRTHDAY!! yay. i'm excited. well, as excited as you can be 5 months before your birthday.

did i say i wanted to go to sydney. yeah, well i still do. i might go with my aunty. she seems to be going. oh. i just remembered. some1s getting married or sumthing. hmmm. ok, dw, just thinking to myself.

umm. i like seriously have nothing to talk about. Someone recommended "cradle of filth". they said it was good, but not many people like that kind of stuff. *cough* i see why. I mean it's not like really weird or anything. it's just empty music. i mean like theres some dude singing *cough* lol, no offence but he sounds like he's squealing or something. well, high pitched screaming/singing. and theres like an organ or somehting. i think it's classified as "death metal" or something. I assume because they sound like they're half dead or because they sing about death or they sound like death or somehting. oh well. oh and i seem to have their cd. all 11 tracks sound the same. well, if that kind of stuff does it for you, sure why not.

well, i think i'll go now. i havent really said much. yes, dragging on skills are pretty good. i seem to have dragged on about nothing for 3 paragraphs. woohoo. well i will go now and stop wasting your time.
Kimo

my gosh pt. 2

me again,
You asked for some lyrics, so here they are:

She seemed dressed in all of me, stretched across my shame.
All the torment and the pain
Leaked through and covered me
I'd do anything to have her to myself
Just to have her for myself
Now I don't know what to do, I don't know what to do when she makes me sad.

She is everything to me
The unrequited dream
A song that no one sings
The unattainable, Shes a myth that I have to believe in
All I need to make it real is one more reason
I don't know what to do, I don't know what to do when she makes me sad.

But I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me

A catch in my throat choke
Torn into pieces
I won't, nO!
I don't wanna be this...

But I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me

She isn't real
I can't make her real
She isn't real
I can't make her real

^ That was for Vermillion Pt. 2. The slow song, where i went "emotional" over. It's a sad song, alright? And it's like acoustic with NO drums and it just sounds nice. I only recommended it coz i didn't think you'd like their other songs. Well, if you want to actually hear it, then just download it. *cough* I mean, don't download. who said that? Downloading is illegal.

Anyway well, hmm. I hate milkbars. They suck as much as living in Whoop whoop. haha, the worst thing would be to live in a milkbar IN Whoop whoop. hah. imagine THAT. Even worse than just milkbars would be to work in one. I those fags that just prance in and just take their time choosing something and then verbally harrassing the poor little girl behind the counter. I saw this one incdident where the guy started shouting at the girl because it was "too expensive". I think he was drunk as well. And another time, i saw this old man say, "G'day gorgeous, I brought you some flowers!!". Personally, i don't think she should have taken them coz who knows where they've been...All this at my local milkbar.

I wanna go to Sydney in the Christmas holidays, but the chances of me getting lost is about: 99%. I don't know my way around and I don't think anyone will wanna go with me. or at least be allowed to go with me. I've been branded as "evil" by a friend's mum. I think I've said so before. She doesn't trust me anymore. She thinks I drink alcohol, do drugs, hang out in Chingvale too much amongst other "evil" stuff. lol, sure why not. So yeah. my bro wanted to go to Sydney too. But that's coz his friends are going. I wanna go to, but i dont wanna tag along with him. Maybe i'll hang out with my uncle and my cousins or something. well, i havent told my parents yet. oh well. i'll plan it then deal with it later.

well i'll be off now. I really should get some work done before it's officially too late.
Kimo

my gosh

hi
WHY GODDAM F#$&IN WHY CAN'T I SLEEP?!! WHY THE F#$& CAN I BE SO GODDAM TIRED YET TAKE 2 HOURS JUST TO SLEEP?!! AND THE SLEEP THAT I DO GET ISN'T EVEN SATISFYING!! Far out. I'm sick of getting 6-7 hours of sleep everynight. I'm so used to getting like 8 hours and taking away an hour off everynight is making me disfunctional. Well, even more so than usual.

Yesterday we went out. we being a couple of us. and yeah. not much happened. lol, we went to the city and bummed around.

I really wanted to say something else, but I can't remember what..dammit. I think i'll disappear for a while. I haven't felt like talking to anyone in such a long time. hmph. oh well. OH i remember what i wanted to talk about:

OMFG DO YOU REALISE HOW MUCH IT SUCKS LIVING OUT IN F#$&EN WHOOP WHOOP?!! Does anyone realise how much i HATE this place?!! I mean I'm so far out of civilisation that something could happen and i'd be the last to know. I mean i see COWS grazing in PADDOCKS on my way to school everyday. My relatives have get-togethers every sunday night. but no. we never go because we live in WHOOP WHOOP. Everyone has fun in chingvale and just hang. but no. we live in WHOOP WHOOP where there's so much to see and do.. like looking out at the great view of.. A F#$&EN MOUNTAIN. WHO THE HELL WOULD VOLUNTARILY LIVE SOMEWHERE LIKE THIS?!! not me, for one. I don't think my bro likes this place either. and what's even worse, well actually here's the whole list:
- No one lives around here
- The only place to go is Knox the shopping centre. and once you've been there once, you've seen everything to see.
- I live at least 20 minutes away from someone I know.
- I don't have a driver's lisence. If i did, I wouldn't be stuck here everyday.
- I heard kookaburras the other day. I'm not exaggerating, i really DO live in Whoop whoop.
- I'm stuck here for another whole year or more.
- It's colder here than in other places. And we don't have a heater.

So yeah. Feel privilaged to live among others.

We're all growing old so quickly, it's scary. My bro's finishing school next year and i'll be in year 10. lol, that hasn't hit me yet, but just see me when it does. I'll be hysterical. Hmm, I have a week left of school holidays and i have nothing much planned. Aww, i'm so annoyed about sunday. I can't go anywhere with Georgia like we'd planned. It's coz my mum said it's too quiet, it's dangerous, only weirdos are out on sundays...etc. except i was allowed to go, i'd be some weirdo then, wouldn't i? Oh well, i'd rather be a weirdo with Georgia than at home with my dear cousin. dear 11 year old cousin.

Hmmm. Anyway, why does everyone bag my music? I don't take it personally, but you can't really judge if you've never listened to the stuff. I mean i have the right to bag all i want coz i've tried listening to your stuff. I've listened and even tried thinking like you, just to get the right...atmosphere? I'm really trying to like your music, but it just doesn't do it for me. Slipknot and korn on the other hand.. lol. I've given up on you hopeless people. Even if i forced it on you, you will never get it.

Crap. I have some homework to do. That sucks. Why should i have to do work on my holidays? well, i'll forget everything otherwise, i guess. oh well, i think i'll make another post. this one looks kinda long, but i could be wrong.

Me

soz

Hi,
Well nice of you to find this post. If you don't want to read about me being a little drama queen, then stop reading from now. Well, I can hear you going: you're not a little drama queen, but after you read this, IF you read this, then you might think otherwise. I just want to get all this outta my system, so you really don't need to read the next bit. Well, here goes, and don't think I'm weird after this..i've always been weird.

Well what I wanted to say/ask/ramble on about is: depression. I mean everyone gets depressed once in a while don't they? Well i know i do. it's a sad fact. but that's not what i wanted to say. I also wanted to say, is it still normal if you get it constantly. God, I don't know why i'm telling you this, perfect strangers or best friends out there, but i mean I know everyone has their bad days, but what happens when it turns into a bad week? what happens when what was a once in a long while thing has now turned into a monthly-oh-so-familiar hole that gets deeper everytime you fall into it? Confession: I've been this --> <-- close to full on wanting to commit suicide. It's not a nice thing really, and i hate it.

I actually probably won't ever commit suicide...maybe. When you, Alan, said that i wasn't boring, well actually, that kinda picked me up a little. But actually, my mum made me feel better too. She didn't say anything in particular, but i know she cares. and i think you people do too, or else, why the fuck are you reading this? I know it's gay and all, but little things really do count to someone on the brink of madness.

But seriously, what diff if i did leave this world? Would it affect you? Hopefully. It's just that, when i'm in this hole, i feel like i'm never gonna be as good as anyone else, i'm always a failure, no-one likes me, i'm so lame, i'm so lonely... and stuff. Then, I know it's probably not the best thing, but i listen to music..you know like slipknot and stuff where they're constantly singing about suicide and stuff. But in one of those "get to know me better" email things i said i listen to slipknot when i'm angry. Well the next best thing is to cry it out. Listening to sad songs just gets the tears out betta. *hah, canon in d is a pretty good crying song. Weird to think it fits in some sort of category as slipknot. Wehehell, SOMEone sounds all pro about it.* So well, anyway that's what i do; cry myself to sleep. Then, usually, i'm all betta the next day.

If not, then I plan my suicide.

But I still don't get it. Why me? I mean I haven't gone through some whole traumatic thing or anything damaging. This is the bit that I mean when i say I'm being a little drama queen. I really shouldn't complain, since there are people starving and stuff and I have it all to them. So why should I be so down all the time? I dno and it feels like I have no right to feel like this. It's like when those millionaires, or at least rich people commit suicide, and everyone asks: why? I'm not saying I'm all rich and that I have everything, but I have a life that half the world could be jealous of. I have a loving family, I have great friends, I go to school, I live in a house, I have food and water, I can read and write. So why the hell am i so fucken depressed all the time?
Hah, i wrote a couple of poems while i was depressed. Keep in mind i'm no poetry sorta person and i don't write poetry very often, especially when i'm not forced to. and i like rhyming poems, so it might sound weird:

Take a hold of my hand
And look into my eyes,
See inside my heart
And figure out my lies.

You'll never comprehend
All the darkness in me,
All those fucken demons
Laughing with glee.

Don't be offended,
But this life is shit.
Oh, it's only my opinion,
I'll get over it.

I'll only say it once,
I don't like to cry,
So i'll leave that behind.
This is my final goodbye.

I had to this other bit that went: Seize my shoulders, shake out the pain, stop my crying ...<- i dno wot goes here. See me wane? Keep me sane? Oh not again? Well here's another one. I like this one better. Oh, and just in case these are misleading, i'm not killing myself anytime soon.

Listen to the kids
Who don't have a clue.
Carefree and joyous,
They've never felt blue.

All of these children,
Are having fun.
All are happy,
All but one.

That one was me,
Bullied and teased.
I cut my wrists,
Everyone was pleased.

Well as you might have noticed, I've taken out the "comments" button. Only because if someone did happen to comment, it'd make all this reality. I'm fine with my thoughts and i don't really want to hear whether you care or not, coz if you didn't you wouldn't have even gotten this far. So i really appreciate you reading this. Just ponder about what I've said, forget about it and don't recommend me any sort of professional help.

Kimo.

umm

Greetings.
I'm so annoyed at Wendy. How could she just look forward to our outing so much, ORGANISE it during school and make it the highlight of our holidays and end up not being allowed to come. How can she sound so lighthearted about it as well?!! I was going hysterical about it and she was just like "oh, I by the way, I can't come." like it was a trip to the local milkbar or something!! And I offered to convince her parents for her and she said I'd never see daylight again. But she HAS to come. It just won't be fun without her. I'm not saying the other people who are coming aren't fun, it's just it'd be funner *funner? is that a word?* with her than without. The nerve of her. *sigh* yes, i know it's not HER fault, but i could seriously ask her parents if she wants to come. I'm getting the impression she doesn't even want to come. ugh.

When someone says "your dragging on skills are great!!" is that a good thing? lol. I suppose it is..A couple of people have said I can go on about nothing much. I try to keep things interesting, but I don't really know how interesting I really am, if any at all. Because even I wouldn't read this blog. Sorry, but I wouldn't, but that's just me. hahaha, i like my power to force this place on you people. Lol, I just sent a formal complaint to wendy. Here's a great link for everyone out there: http://flooble.com/fun/go.php . And another great link : http://fujiko07.blogspot.com . I'd like to have power in forcing Fujiko's blog on you people as well.

Well I smell lunch and I'll see you later,
Kimo

uhh

Hello,
Do you know what i hate? I hate being an insomniac. ugh. It sucks and only this morning, have i had a nice long sleep. 9 1/2 hours, actually. I've had about 6-7 every other night these holidays. don't you hate that? like when you're dead tired but you just can't fall asleep? I woke up at 7 this morning and i couldn't get back to sleep until like 8 or something. god, i HATE it. i hate it more than i hate...umm...well.. *insert hated thing*. well anyway.

Do you know how bored i was last night? Think of the most boringest time you've ever had. well it was more boring last night. I had absolutely NOTHING to do, no one to talk to, and it's not like i could have gotten any sleep. ugh. NOTHING. absolutely nothing is what i have to do. and so i'm bored out of my brains at the moment. well i was even more so last night, when i had even less to do than now. now i at least have the internet. it's only the end of the first week of holidays and i'm sooooo bored.

hmm...can you lose interestingness? i mean i think i was once interesting. well i've been so bored for so long i've turned boring. like really boring. Like i've lost the ability to even form sentences proper. you get? ugh. well. see what i mean? ok i did that on purpose but anyway, i've turned excruciatingly boring and it's killing me. I'M SICK OF BEING BORING. i need something interesting to happen. even RE was more interesting than my life is at the moment.

oh and i have something to tell you people. GO ON TO FUJIKO'S BLOG!! *http://fujiko07.blogspot.com* she said no one's been there. shame on all of you. go on it NOW. well not exactly now. you can go when you've finished reading this and made your comment. anyway. who knew these holidays could drag on so much, yet go by so quickly. what have i acheived these holidays? as muc as i have done: nothing. AHH!! georgia's on MSN. long time no talk to her. I'll see you people lata.
Kimo

distraught

hello,
well as you can tell, this place has had a change. :( all my hard work IS GONE!! but now i have my comments and archives back. Well. great. now what? i've even lost my people counter. damn this place. and wtf is with my posts? they've got all this crap on them. ugh. well i really can't be bothered changing them. Oh well, just think all those O's with squiggly lines on top are apostrophes and the O's with lines on top are quotation marks. and the E's are dot dot dot's. yeah well you kinda can get the drift of wot im talking about.

So anyway, since it just deleted my post, i'll just start again. Well, not much has been happening lately. maybe i should get my chatterbox back. hmm, i'm too scared to now. oh well, i'll live without it. So, i'm bored and yeah. I feel like...going to sleep. hmm now thats a good idea. i woke up at 8:30. ugh. i've woken up at about that time everyday. it can't be good for me. anyway, i'm going to do something somewhere. ugh. braindead.

Kimo

3rd post in an hour

Hi again,
Do you think I’ve been subliminally turned against god? I’ve just kinda noticed the lyrics from a song I’ve been listening to (Korn-Got the life) :
God pains me, I’ll never see the lie he wants us to see
God told me, I’ve already got the life oh I say…

But it’s not really that bad is it? Oh well, I don’t mind being an atheist, except I’d rather not call myself that. Here’s another theory of mine: “God” made aliens, who landed on earth and then some germs or some shit dropped off them and that evolved into humans and stuff. And then when we die, we decompose. Wow, how intellectual is that? Well that’s my theory and I’ll go by that. I call it, Kimo-ism, and the followers are called Kimolians. “What do you follow, Christianity? Buddhism? Hinduism?” “Nope, Kimo-ism, I’m a Kimolian.” And I don’t discriminate against gays. Or anyone else. I mean you could smell and still be a Kimolian. I know I do :D

So…have I finally run out of thoughts? Nope. Oh yes. Do old people talk crap because they’ve said everything they’ve wanted to say? OH NO!! I’ve already started talking crap, so I’ve run out of stuff to talk about!! I’M TURNING OLD!! Lol, nah. I just don’t want to run out of stuff to say. I like exercising my rights to talk crap without being too much of a weirdo. I like my weird thoughts. Does anyone else like Slipknot? I do, and I thought only hardcore people listen to them. I’m not hardcore. Normally azns don’t listen to rock. I’m a weirdo. I think I’m turning white. As in Aussie. I’ve been told so by my bro. Well here’s some proof:
I eat fried rice with tomato sauce.
I hold my chopsticks the wrong way.
I’m a wanka. Hahaha, just kidding.
But well, I still look like a fob. It’s all good.

If you don’t have anything to listen to, try Follow the Leader by Korn. It’s pretty good. And so is Slipknot- Volume 3: The subliminal verses. That’s really good and there’s some slow songs for non-rockers. I’ve required a reputation now as some rockish person who listens to crap and when I say something’s good, no one believes me. Ugh. You pop and r’n’b listening freaks are the weirdos. How can you say, “I don’t like the sound of screaming.” Yet you’re constantly listening to people wailing at you in different forms. Ugh. ß That sums up pop and r’n’b. Well it’s at the end of the 3rd page and I wanted to make a scarf. So I’ll go and do that now. Oh no, not yet. I just thought of something else I wanted to say. And now it’s gone..good one.
Ahhh, yes. I remember. I’ve come up with another question, although, it’s not as good as the others: If you saw my diary, would you read it. Now I don’t mean this. You know I don’t mean this. I mean my other one which I put EVERY thought and feeling into. I was pretty serious about those other questions. I hope someone answered yes to any of them… I hate this. I sound so depressed and sad. Oh man, I need a life or else I’ll start making stuff up. This is giving me a headache. But well, it’s either this or the price is right. Ugh. I’d rather this.

Do you know what I find completely useless? “challenge for life” it’s this “fun” program going on at school for us year 9ers. It’s meant to make us motivated and wanna come to school. Yeah, wrong approach teachers. Making us swim is pretty bad. Life saving-worse. Hah, glad I’ve gotten that one over and done with. The other components: volunteering and “be real game/ rock and water”. With the volunteering, we had to go weeding at some place and go do stuff with the elderly. Ugh, ugh. And NOW, when I thought it was all over, the teachers fight back and bite us on the ass. We have to do like 12 weeks or something of crap all. The “be real game” is where we randomly pick some person and make up their names and stuff and then we pretend we’re them. It’s a big waste of time because everything’s done for you and only the most braindead person would have any trouble with it. But we’re all brain dead by the time it comes to do anything. I mean the teacher just craps ON and ON and ON… We have to make up resumes about MADE UP PEOPLE!!! I mean wtf is with that?!!

Well. I’m full of hate, aren’t I. Hmm, I think I come across as a pretty mean person. I’m not really. I just speak my mind. Well, that’s if I feel like speaking at all. I’m really bored now. Well I’ll get started on that scarf. I just got this pink wool. Pretty cool. And I payed $5 for it so it better make a good scarf or else I’ll be annoyed.

Well cya lata then, Kimo.

I can’t actually see my blog at the moment, coz this is still Word, but if my calculations are correct, I don’t think I have anymore “archives” or comments. So if you really want to tell me anything, feel free:
kaeti_@hotmail.com
kaetio@gmail.com

18th post

Well hello again.
*sigh* I’ve had so much thinking time, I don’t think it’s healthy. Did you know they said keeping a diary isn’t healthy? I don’t want to stop though. It’s one of those things that once you start, you can’t stop. I just came back from my second trip to Parkmore. I got this top for $5 at Go-Lo. : D bargain. Anyway, I pity those that are still going to school. Poor, poor you people. *sigh* Being at my gran’s place hasn’t done much for me. I’d rather roll around in my own bed. I mean, there’s not much room here, so I have to sleep in my aunt’s bed…with her. Did that sound wrong? Anyway, I’m scared I take up too much room or hog the blanket or something and so I’m …ugh, I was gonna say stiff. My gosh, why not? I’m not a guy. I can be stiff and sleep with my aunty in her bed. Hahaha. Anyway, don’t you hate it when you want more sleep, but you just can’t get it. omg, why does this keep sounding so bad?!! Ugh, I give up.

I was told by a friend’s mother that I was evil because I go out too much. Omg, that is the worst thing someone could say to me. 1) I hardly even go out. 2) I’m not evil. 3) what does she know? Hahaha, no offence or anything, if you’re reading this. Pfft, but I doubt she will. And so yeah. Ugh, I have something I want to tell you people. Actually I don’t but what the heck. Oh, and by the way, this is an online diary. That kinda hit me the other day, that I actually have an online diary. I thought that only weirdo’s have online diaries. But then again, I’m not totally out of that category. I meant that people who put their diaries on the internet are weird because the whole world knows their thoughts and stuff. Well. Dw, I’m probably not making sense.

Well back to what I wanted to say. I think I act differently in front of different people. I mean well, I don’t go high in front of my grandma and other stuff. Like, *sigh* at that dinner with Alan, I just felt weird. Like …I dno, I can’t explain it. I mean well I’ve tried to connect the different me’s, but I dno, it just doesn’t really work. I’m so much more quieter in front of my relatives than other people, but that might be because they’re always judging. Oh I dno. Well it’s just some particular relatives that judge me hardcore. Like all my relatives on my dad’s side are so bad!! I mean they blame everything on my mum as well. Ugh, I hate them. They’re always like: “My children are smarter than yours. My children go to a private school. I’m so rich. I lick my mum’s ass and like it just so that she’ll like me.” Ugh, it makes me sick.

On the whole, I can be the same person, but like a teacher said: “some people are just quiet. It’s a defense mechanism.” I don’t like being quiet. But then again, I’m usually only quiet when I’m brain dead with nothing to say. That’s the worst thing. I hate it when I have nothing to say. I normally don’t though. Reading this, it sounds like I’m some mental patient in need of professional help. I don’t really, but I just …I dno. Ugh. I hate this. I prefer writing in my actual diary diary, but I’m too lazy. But this is so weird. You know all my personal stuff. Well I can blame myself if anything gets weird between us, coz it’s me that writing this stuff and putting it on the internet. Omg, anyone could be reading this. Please don’t stalk me.

So far, I’v’nt said anything majorly interesting. Except that I have major mood swings. God, I don’t really. I hate the term “mood swings”. That’s for people with PMS. Wow, I’m on my 3rd page of Word. I really need to get a life and stop talking to you. Well, since you’ve read up to here, well you won’t mind if I kept going, will you? Of course not. Well I’m not stopping you from getting up and walking off, am I? Noooo. Well, hahaha, I’ll make another post coz I don’t think this will fit.
Kimo

Ugh

Hello readers,
Yeah, it’s me again. Do you like go onto the computer and think, “gee, I can’t wait to read the next episode of Kimo’s life”? Well, good on you. Long time, no post. Well it hasn’t been THAT long, it’s just I found myself missing this place while I was at my gran’s place, which is where I’ve been the last few days. Wow. I never thought there could be a more boring place than r.e. class. Lol, well it’s not THAT bad if it has a computer, I guess. But what’s a computer without the internet? Useless. Well actually, I’m typing this on Word and I’ll copy it onto my blog later. Well, since there’s no MSN to distract me, you might find something intelligent in this post. Or not.

Haha, Word’s saying I have heaps of spelling mistakes. Oh well. So anyway, like everyone else, I have to talk about religion. Oh my god. Well I’ll tell you my views of it, and you can stop reading now, if you’re not interested. I’ll start from the start. A friend once said, at the dinner table might I add, “ I’m an atheist”. I nearly choked on my pizza. Then after much thought, I’ve come to the conclusion that I too, am an atheist. Eugh, it sounds so weird. ME, an atheist? Atheists are like..so sure of themselves and so … I dno, not me? But I’ve never wanted to be Christian. I don’t really believe in God that much. Or Jesus for that matter. And I’m a bit iffy on Buddhism. And the rest are just crap. Like what the hell is Kabbalah where they wear $30 pieces of string around their wrists? I have no idea. And, lol, I’m not into Satanism. So yeah. Can you just be not religious? And I still don’t get what a soul is. I don’t think I have one. I mean great explanation the RE teacher gave us: “a soul is, umm… *sigh* it’s like *points to chest* something in here. And it’s…. I can’t really explain it…go meditate and listen to god…” I mean WHAT THE HELL?!! Yup. Got it. That thing. Here. Yup, totally get it now. ^. -

So anyway, I’m sick of religion. I mean what has it ever done for us? I was reading a CD insidey bit thing and the person goes: “I’d like to thank Jesus for inspiring me throughout this year, and for helping me through my lows. Without You, this album could never have happened. There is nothing more relieving than knowing You are in control of my life. May You shine through me…” Yeah. I’m serious that that’s what she wrote. Wtf is “you are in control of my life”? No, you’re the one that controls your life. You make your own decisions and that little voice in your head is NOT god, that’s YOUR voice. Just coz your heads so empty it makes an echo, doesn’t mean it’s god.

And being an atheist can’t be easy. Especially when all your relatives are Christian and they think you are too. Do you know what I heard my aunt telling my 3-year-old cousin? “Who made you so smart? God did.” I don’t know who made you smart, since your dad’s a druggie, but I DO know who made you, and that wasn’t god. That was your parents… Yeah. wow, this much is like a whole page on word. Font: times new roman, size: 12. ugh, this is more than I could write on my English essay. Damn this. Haha, 600 words. Huh? Now it’s 607. That was weird. Anyway, I’m gonna make another post; I don’t think much more will fit here.
Kimo

~~this is interesting~~

hello,
technically my holidays don't start until Monday, but oh well. Do you know what? well i'll tell you what. I woke up at 6:00 AM and i couldn't get back to sleep. So i stayed in bed. I finally got out of bed at 8:00 AM <-- that means i stayed in bed for like 2 hours. And then i did my maths homework. that's pretty impressive. maths homework at 8 in the morning. Yeah, I've recruited so many fans of this place!! Well I dno about fans, but frequent readers. Well nice to see you here. Oh my gosh, I've been here for like two hours and that's all i've written. yay. i'm sooooo interesting. Well i've made this place slightly nicer. yay---> like the game? I do. Way cool, dude. And I did it alllll myself. it's pat on the back work!! Anyway, i'm over it. no actually, im not, but i have nothing more to say about it.

Well. still here? I would have given up on the second sentence. Ooo, now i've got a chatterbox. MADNESS. If you look over there--> in my friend's list is "computer people". Well i tried to remember their names from one web page to this one, and i couldn't even do that much. I mean I was kinda braindead. Anyway, back to the "computer people" if you click on the link, you might see why I called them that. And they sent me an email to join in the gmail thing. So I joined, and I thought, what the hell, I don't need 1 gig of email space. I'm not THAT spesh. well if you wanna know i'm kaetio@gmail.com. kaetio because they wouldn't let me have any less.

Well, i'm so bored. ugh. it's ONLY saturday. like not EVEN the holidays and i'm bored. oh well, i'll find something to amuse me. oo, wat's that i hear? *eat me*. food's calling me, so i think i should go.
Kimo.
And don't forget to comment, or else i don't know you care.

I've run out of meaningless titles

Hello,
You know i am so over that bloody "hahahah" post. It took me so long to publish. I have come up with a theory:
I'm not really funny, i just laugh a lot and hang around funny people so people assume i'm funny.

And i have a few questions as well:
If I went blind tomorrow, would I remember what you look like in 10 years?
If you wanted help, would you come to me?
If I died tomorrow, would you regret not saying anything to me?
If I died tomorrow, would you remember me in 10 years?

ahhh, such heavy questions.

Oh, it seems i am back in my dear IT class. Mr S's monotonous voice is killing me. damn. and no music. damn damn. And i don't even get what we're meant to be doing. damn damn damn. 6 HOURS UNTIL THE END OF TERM 3!!!!! omg (i say that so much, soz any christians who are offended) i'm so excited about the holidays. i'm not going anywhere, or doing anything interesting, but still. anywhere away from schoolwork is somewhere i wanna be. It sounds like i hate school, but well, i do. well i can't really say i hate it, it's a place away from home. but i don't hate home either. well let's just say, i get sick of being in the one place for large periods of time. ugh, i'm getting confused.

Hmmm, Fujiko's got a new layout. i'm so jealous of people who can make a work of art, effortlessly. IT SUCKS. Hmm, does anyone know what they want to be when they grow up. that sounds stupid. lol, it's not like i'm gonna grow much more. well, i mean when you're an adult. that sounds stupid too. i don't wanna get old. well not old. i mean i like being dependant on people, coz im too lazy to be independant, but i want to be independat coz i dont like being depenant. ok, i'm being indecisive.

well i have to go now. class is over.
Kimo
oh, and i found how to put more people on my friend's list. wow. welcome sublime flamingo.

hahahah pt. 2

hello,
Did you know that last post took 3 goes for me to find out that it was too long and the computer refused to publish it. Well it could at least have told me it wouldn't work. oh well. and i noticed quite a few typos. oh well. u kinda get the drift, don't you...?

hmmm, i was gonna talk about something, but i can't remember...oh yes, TERM 3 FINISHES TOMORROW!!!!wooooohooooo. ahhh. the only problem is the english essay i have to do on romeo and juliet. im so sick of those stupid ****s (insert any 4 letter swear word). Anyway, not much been happening. oh and i found some interesting blogs: http://sublimelylime.blogspot.com *sublime flamingo* and http://iamruined.blogspot.com . yeah. and fujiko's is still good. great. better than mine.

I was so bored today that i green-outed my diary. green out being a new invention to which i haven't seen the likes of before. white-out that's green. wow. except it says on the side: sniff this product. i think mine's been tampered with, because under the white-out i found the words: do not deliberately... weird huh. it's like a conspiracy against me.

these things should have something counting down your number of characters like on phones coz this is stupid. i don't know how long i'm allowed to crap on for... hmmm, i'm in a boring mood. does anyone else agree with me on boring moods? alan thinks not. yes, you can have boring moods. moods where you're just boring. AND i was having a whole debate with jong, can you just not think about anything while you're awake. my answer: yes. like you can just blank out. and i had another whole debate with wendy. do you have tomato sauce on your fried rice? my answer: yes. if you don't then it's just plain and boring. her argument is that it's gross and you use soy sauce. well, i dont care about her. i'll just have my tomato sauce. she can suffer and never experience nice tasting stuff. *sigh* i'm still trying to convert her into rock from her chinese crap she listens to.

well i think im running out of space,
Kimo

hahahah

hello,
I'm giddy. no not really, i just had the urge to write that. this post probably won't even be funny. wow, that's like false advertising.

well i thought of some of the biggest tortures in life:
Getting out of a warm bed and into a cold room.
Getting out of a warm shower and into a cold room.
Getting out of a warm car and into a cold place....
and the list goes on:
Having the first/last bite of a funsize chocolate. It's not fun. It's torture coz it's only a taster.
Reading Shakespeare.
Having to do an essay another day *Friday* so the week is 3 times longer.
Having cold hands and feet.
R.E.

That's not all of it, but I don't think you want to know them all. Anyway, has anyone looked at Fujiko's blog? http://fujiko07.blogspot.com. Sorry Sublime Flamingo i've never known what your site's called but follow the link from one of my comments people and have a look at it. damn you all. Your little blogs look so much nicer than this place. oh well, i'll live. anyway, i tried to put a chatterbox here, but the html is too weird. meh, i can't be bothered.

If anyone saw my comments on Fujiko's page, i'll elaborate on my thoughts. OMG, our teacher was half an hour late so we couldn't finish our essay in class. SO we have to do it on Friday, our last day of term 3. Dammit, i was hoping to finish it in class TODAY (wendnesday) and cruise through the rest of the week without any pressure. Stupid *beep*.

Oh i think i'll go now. oo there goes the bell.
well cya lata theb
Kimo

*sigh*

Hello
I made a post yesterday but my stupid internet just cut off. Well it's gone all fast so that's ok then, I guess. Well. I'm so much happier today, but no more energetic or alive. just happier. As in, I've done my house debating, jap test and NEARLY finished my stupid Romeo and Juliet crap. Anyway, hmm, I'm sooo not interesting. well at least not at the moment. brain dead is what i call it.

*sigh* I'm so bored and my mum's making me get off the computer. so stupid. I'll end up coming back on anyway. I'm like magnetically attracted to this stupid mass of plastic. Well, do you wanna know about Saturday night? Well I'll tell you, even though I'm over it and only coz i have nothing else to talk about. Well I went to my grandparent's place and i was with my aunt and bro and there was nothing to do so we went out to dinner. My aunty brought her friend/boyfriend, i dno which, and i brought alan. yeah. not much interesting happened. i was pretty braindead then as well. actually, you could say i'm braindead when i'm not high. do you realise i don't really type much, it's just this font is so big it looks like i'm writing heaps.

On sunday i went to chingvale and met wendy. we just watched my bro's friend eat her banana fritta. wow. so interesting. then she had to go and then i had to tag along with my bro and is friend coz well, chingvale's not the best place to walk around by yourself.

well i'm going to dinner and i might come back. my hands are cold. i'm bored. crap, i've got english crap to do. omg, it's due tomorrow. goddam...*sigh* i really really really can't wait until the holidays. goddam, this last week of school's dragging on and on like there's no tommorow. lol, i know it's only monday, but it's been ages since i was in my nice warm bed this morning. wow, it feels like YESTERDAY or something. well i really should go. my mum's death stares are really giving me a head ache, well, i've got a headache.
cya lata,
Kimo

hello

hi.
how is everyone? I got like 7 hours or less of sleep and I'm pretty awake... That don't really make sense, but oh well. Aaanyway...I just made a post yesterday, so why am I making another one? not much has happened since last night... hahaha. REALLY, not much has happened.

You know what I saw the other day? I was at the local milkbar, and some lady wanted to buy this drink called ... errr I can't remember but it was one of those bottled drinks with the little pop top AND SHE ASKS FOR A STRAW!!!! I mean what the HELL?!! lol, that was so stupid.

Hmmm, so anyway, not much doing. DO YOU KNOW WHAT? Well, I'll tell you what. My parents have like $200 credit on their phone or something and I share the phone bill with them and so they're gonna be paying for my next teo phone bills. YAY. I think everyone should get a 3 phone. I mean it's like got COLOURSCREEN and that's about it. Well it has a camera and stuff too.

have I told you about the Robert blackwood hall concert that happened on Tuesday night?!! OMG, the only thing more boring would be speech night. Sorry Georgia, but I mean 2 hours of music is pretty bad. Well, it might have been better if ... well, if it just didn't happen at all. *sigh* i'm so mean, but it's not like I'm saying the PEOPLE are crap, it's just the music was a little...boring? repetitive? tiring? I dno, don't take my word for it. i dont' know anything about music so don't let me offend you.

so anyway... i'm cold. it's meant to be spring, godammit!! it was warmer in WINTER!! i'm sick of being cold, i'm sick of it as much as i'm sick of school. omg, i still have homework to do. ahh well, it can wait until tomorrow... well i did well on my maths test!! phew, that's a relief coz i don't wanna be kicked outta the advanced class. nya, that sounds really puncy. aaanyway, ROMEO AND JULIET CAN GO TO HELL. OMG, why the f*beep* do we have to friken learn about some play that was made agaes and ages ago? i mean WHO CARES? like seriously, who does? Not me.

well...i have not much else to say. i'm still cold. and my hot water's gone cold. omg, i just downloaded a song, but not really. stupid piece of annoying stuff. it didn't play. bloody hell. none of my songs are playing!! i need more songs. any suggestions? as in songs to download. anyway, i say that a lot, yeah well im gonna go now, i'm kinda bored, but i don't wanna do any homework. *sigh* i'm so lazy. eugh, the cold water's gone funny. not funny-haha, more funny-weird. So

yeah, cya lata then.
kimo

*cough*

Hi to anyone reading this.
I just CAN NOT wait until the holidays!! I mean could they come any slower? And could this year go any faster? OMG, I'm already freaking out about VCE!! It's like coming and coming VERy VERY VERY VERY...QUICKLY!! OMG *insert swear words* I'M GONNA BE DOING VCE JAP NEXT YEAR!!! That's really scary.

Aaanyway, I've figured I wanna have 2/3 kids and get married in my 20s and I'm gonna be rich and live in a big house and have a done up car. I'm gonna have a good job that I like and one which pays well. AND for my formal, I'm gonna go there in a done up car and my date will have to drive... AND yeah. I know most of it probably won't work out and I'm being a little ambitious, but still, that's what i WANT to happen and if not, then oh well.

:( OMG, the song : Vermillion pt.2 by Slipknot is so sad. It makes me feel so depressed and makes me wanna CRY everytime I hear it. awww. I want a hug... Anyone? umm ok then.

well anyway, I think I'll go now since no-one's on msn. I'm hungry. damn, i have english, jap, debating to do. ( what the hell? I'm not even good and i'm doing debating? hmm, AND bloody hell, i didn't get "school debating" on my report and i did 3 DEBATES!! ripped off) and thank god all my maths is finished. phew.

well, thanx for reading this, and don't forget to comment,
Kimo.

hehe

Umm, I don't think it worked last time, but go to www.e-messenger.net to use MSN on the school computers. Don't spread it though, coz then there'll be weirdo people online and then it'll get banned and then we'll be stuffed AGAIN. My blog doesn't even work on school computers. Maybe I've sworn in one of them... Oh well, I can't help that. HAha. I've found another one. It's www.piglet-im.com they're both dodgy. Anyway, better than all those bloody emails.
Signing off, Kimo

mmm

Hi people.
So it seems people have been reading this stuff that I'm writing. well, if it's not too much trouble, could ya comment so I know you've been here? Yeah well anyway, I've been told off for using real names on these posts and in this blog thing. Please don't stalk me. Anyway, it is Sakura's birthday today!! Woohoo. OK, well, I'll tell you what I got her: a green box with: some chocolate, her favourite one, lollies, a CD case thing and 5 CDs: Slipknot *self titled album*, Iowa by Slipknot, Volume 3: The Subliminal Verses by Slipknot, Hybrid Theory and Meteora by Linkin Park and All Eyez on Me by Tupac. Yeah. I felt tacky 'coz they were all burnt. As in copied CDs, not physically burnt... Anyway, soz Alan. I'm still feeling tacky for your present.

Aaaanyway, does anyone know what they're gonna do for work experience? Any suggestions? I have noooo fricky idea. AND I'm in science and who the hell wants to know about how whales hold their breathe? Ooo or why do trees lose their leaves? Coz they're demented? I DON'T CARE!!! Anyway, I'm bored...

Gotta go now, Kimo.